4/4/2010 - How I Disappear & If I Was Wholly Here

My favorite way to disappear is to walk. I walk as long as I want, as slow or fast as I want, wherever I want to the Good Stuff playlist on my iPod. I can disappear in a crowd or at a party pretty easily just by really listening and paying attention to everyone and everything else. I like to meditate, but I don't think I know what I'm doing yet. I can also disappear into a notebook, a novel, a creative project, or, when I'm super lazy, the TV.

If I was wholly here: I would be practicing and teaching raised consciousness and awareness. I would stop trying to fit my round shape into the square hole that is public education. I would sell my house and buy THE FARM with Jenny. I would spend the rest of my nows manifesting joy and modeling peace. I would become a leader and follower of non-separatist spirituality. I would almost always walk with my arms spread out like airplane wings. I would train raptors to land on my arm. I would never be afraid again. I would write books and songs and poetry. I would own horses and golf carts and many scooters with awesome helmets. I would design awesome helmets with matching goggles. I would talk to and listen to more people. I would never feel pain. I would live forever and fall more and more in love with life every moment of forever. I would throw my cellphone into an active volcano as I helicoptered over it. I would throw my judgement in there with it. I would grow my own food and flowers and raise my own meat.  I would learn and understand the ways of nature. I would forget everything.