September 9, 2008 - God as Stem Cells

The book I'm reading describes God as undifferentiated stem cells that can individuate into anything all-at-once...the MOTHER of all stem cells. This makes some sense to me especially because of the way my own cells understand what God isn't. My cells understand God-lies the same way they detect bull shit and creepiness. The first time I felt the positive of this nagging negative was when my cells decided on their own to do a week long service project with my dad and our church youth group at a time when I spent hours scheming to get away from both. I was asked to describe the experience in front of the church the Sunday after our return. I said...without any idea I was going to say it..."I felt God alive in all my cells." And I did. I did not find God at church, in anyones good deeds, on TV, or even in the bible. I found what I finally FELT was God right inside my own being. I found God being ridiculously beautiful in the matter all around me. The following is an incomplete rendering of when I notice that same gorgeous feeling:

• On and off throughout my experiences with the Appalachian Service Project
• When I get it right in the classroom  

• When I provide guidance to someone seeking it from me
• When I prepare for, and really mean what I am saying
• When I hang out with my sisters
• When I walk with my iPod
• When I am noticing something special in nature and sometimes with people 
• When I give something away
• When I see and hear birds

• When I am creating a gift
• When I am composing a greeting card
• When I get a clear rush of Bob's love and/or admiration
• When I'm dancing

                               

• When I spread my arms wide when walking
• When I'm riding Sissy 

•  When I'm beating Joe at poker
• When I'm reading spiritual stuff that makes sense 
• Almost every time a breeze visits me

• When I smell big, hot rushes of Lily or Lilac or Lavender
• Sometimes when I'm writing, or when I get a strong sense that I should be writing
• When I talk with Jenny on the phone in the morning
• When the scenery around me is so big it shrinks me out of my self

• When I hear a natural water source...brook, stream, rain, waves, the clunk-bloop of a docked boat rocking, the slow quiet laps that move around a body entering a pool during the night, the swish of a watery-duck-landing. 

• When I hear live music in an unexpected place
• When I am loving someone unselfishly
• A few times during meditation
• After the initial anxiety of being miles outside my comfort zone subsides, and I get to see something new about me
• When I see the glow of honest happiness on someones face and/or hear it in their voice
• When I can let go of judgement of another and any personal intention for another

• When I am around others who have no intention for or judgement of me
• When I see God godding

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When do you feel God alive in your cells?